One of the main reasons why I’ve started a blog so many times is because after I have a few posts in, I question everything. Are people really going to read it? What will they think of me? What if someone I know reads it? Are my pictures good? Am I writing about something that matters? I am my biggest judge. I don’t need anyone to question me before I begin to doubt myself. This time around, I am using blogging as a project. I will continue to challenge myself to write, take pictures, and express myself. Hoping that it will help build my confidence up.
Today, I wanted to go back a place I had seen while driving around that I thought would make a really nice background for a picture. I am always seeing these beautiful Instagram posts by friends, beauty and lifestyle bloggers and wish my feed looked like that and I had the ability to take such gorgeous pictures. On the way there, I was really excited but once we got there (me & my boyfriend), I got really anxious. I began to think about people walking by, what if I looked like an idiot… My boyfriend’s not a photographer… And I’m not a model… So not getting the right shot that looked like the Instagrams I’ve seen, made it all the more frustrating.
I’m hoping this is a way for me to work on my confidence. But, to also show you that not everything is as perfect as it looks on social media and the internet. I’m sure as I continue to work on this, it’ll get easier. For now, I am really anxious about you reading this.
How do you work on your confidence?
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